Sign 1: Major Betrayal Revealed
For years, my mother conditioned me to believe that she was the best mother anyone could ask for. She would tell me with pride how she had sacrificed her entire life for us, how I was her life, how no mother in this world could match her love. And as a child, I worshiped that image. I carried it in my heart like gold. I used to think I had the best mother alive. Then, one day, God dropped the first hammer.
I found out that the first seven or eight years of my life, the years when a child is supposed to bond with their mother, I never even saw her. I had been dumped with her mother to be raised. I had never drunk her milk, I had never been fed by her, I had never had her presence in the way I should have had. My earliest years were spent technically motherless. I was passed on to my aunt, who was only 15 or 16 herself, to be raised. My mother would occasionally visit, throw money at her, and leave again.
And I remember how much anxiety I used to feel as a child, always longing for her, always craving her presence, always fearing she would not return. That was the deep separation anxiety that lived in me. And when I finally forced myself back into her life by crying and starving myself to the point that I had to be brought back, the trauma was already done. And then began the new trauma.
I had already learned that I was not safe with my mother, but in my head, I still believed her. I believed she had sacrificed everything for me until God showed me the truth, and I could no longer ignore it. This betrayal was not small; it shook my identity to its core. It forced me to question everything I believed about loyalty, love, and family.
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